When a boulder is stationary it has virtually no momentum. But give it but a slight push & the speed at which it picks up momentum is both spectacular & inevitable esp when it's on a slope.
I am that boulder. But I don't feel particularly momentus at the moment.
Trouble is I'm not sure I'm ready to be pushed.. but I hate regret more than anything else in the world & I refuse to live by any of the coulda, shoulda, woulda's that usually plague the minds of the many.. so whilst I was out & about.. in the spirit of forward momentum & networking I did something that surprised even me - I gave my number to a guy completely out of my league. The first time since my break-up. Momentus hardly feels adequate to describe it.
Ultimately whether or not Olli chooses to call.. at least I went home without any regrets and a sense of winning a small victory.
A dreamer, seared by his imperfections, aiming to learn what it means to live life to the max. The wait is finally over... this journey begins now..
Friday, 30 January 2009
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
New Year Resolutions
Blimey how on Earth has another year passed me by already? There is so much I have yet to do, so many things yet to see, so so so very many things.
This is about the time of my yearly dit where I look back on the year gone.
This has been one of the best & most interesting years of my life and at the same time the worse too.
Whilst my initial meeting with X was a sexually charged cat & mouse game.. the relationship we now share has evolved well beyond that. He has earnt the rank & position of one of my dearest friends. He is akin to family now - that essentially sums up everything perfectly.
With him (X) in my life many many others have come. Some have stayed.. some have gone. But the important ones have all stayed & my relationship with them all has gone from strenght to strenght. Through him I met the Twin. And well she merits a specific standalone mention.
I met Charles this year too. I'll just say lessons have been learnt & leave it at that. However I do think he will forever define & shape my future relationships. But like they say 'live and learn'.
Meeting Jules & Jay for the first time - no words there. So great.
I suppose this now leaves the need to look forward. Unlike previous years I'm not gonna make a chain of New Year Resolutions but just a few:
1. BE HAPPY
2. DRAW TANGIBLE BOUNDARIES WITH PEOPLE & FAMILY
3. PUT MYSELF FIRST MORE OFTEN
Not sure how I'll achieve this but I'll be damned if I don't try.
This is about the time of my yearly dit where I look back on the year gone.
This has been one of the best & most interesting years of my life and at the same time the worse too.
Whilst my initial meeting with X was a sexually charged cat & mouse game.. the relationship we now share has evolved well beyond that. He has earnt the rank & position of one of my dearest friends. He is akin to family now - that essentially sums up everything perfectly.
With him (X) in my life many many others have come. Some have stayed.. some have gone. But the important ones have all stayed & my relationship with them all has gone from strenght to strenght. Through him I met the Twin. And well she merits a specific standalone mention.
I met Charles this year too. I'll just say lessons have been learnt & leave it at that. However I do think he will forever define & shape my future relationships. But like they say 'live and learn'.
Meeting Jules & Jay for the first time - no words there. So great.
I suppose this now leaves the need to look forward. Unlike previous years I'm not gonna make a chain of New Year Resolutions but just a few:
1. BE HAPPY
2. DRAW TANGIBLE BOUNDARIES WITH PEOPLE & FAMILY
3. PUT MYSELF FIRST MORE OFTEN
Not sure how I'll achieve this but I'll be damned if I don't try.
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