Saturday, 26 December 2009

The Muddy Waters of '09

As the end of 2009 creeps closer and closer the sum of the highs & lows of the year gone comes crashing down on me like a tidal wave. What can I say on how this year has fared?

This year like many before it, has been an evolutionary journey of self-discovery, grit, frustrations, love, successes and failures, amongst many other things. Each step on the rung of the ladder has highlighted the need to establish priorities and find balance with the multiple aspects of my life.

Whilst I have struggled with some destructive relationships I also found love in the most unexpected of places, in the most unexpected of people this year.  I have made new friends, built indestructable foundations with some, lost or walked away from few, but worse I have neglected some, and sadly I don't think there has been a shortage of these this year. I will ensure that the New Year brings appropriate changes to that front. This year has seen me rid myself of some bad habits, some bigger, more noticable than others.

Mentally & emotionally this year has been a turbulent ride. I feel like the more I reach out and try to hold on to things from my past and present the faster they slip away.

Things I've learnt this year:
- It will take me a long time to become the person I want to be.
- I'm capable of continuing on long after what I think I am
  capable of.
- People who love me dearly, sometimes don't know how to
  show it.
- People who I love dearly, don't always know.
- It isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes I
  have to learn to forgive myself.

Now, I eagerly await the birth of 2010.

For all those that stop here, I wish you a successful New Year. Wishing you all laughter, happiness, love, health and prosperity.


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Sunday, 13 December 2009


There are millions of butterflies
Yet only one I call a friend

There are a thousand reasons why
But I can only think of one

It’s the only one that called me broken
Yet it said it liked me

Only broken butterflies can’t fly after all
It thinks me strange

I trapped it in a jar
Couldn’t bear to let it go

But then I saw it shed a tear
So I let it go

But it said maybe I needed a friend
So it refused to fly away

I leaned in and said go fly away
Go be with those like you

It shook its head and bit its wings off
It held them out

For you so you can be free it said
Then it fell asleep

There might be a million butterflies
Yet only one I called a friend